DEEP NEED

I desperately want to be closer to God. I have wanted this since the moment I believed, but now I lost even the passion I possessed back then. I have been thinking a lot about the idea of as you seek God then that feeds the desire for more. So I have been trying in anyway and at any time to be seeking him. Nothing really is going wrong in my life, except for that you always have something, but nothing major. Everything else is worthless compared to him as Paul says and I have been thinking of that often as I think part of me doesn't embrace that for some reason. It is not that I have anything I deem important, just little stupid things I like to do when I could be with God. You would think that would be easy to give up since I acknowledge that it is meaningless, but I find myself consistently making the wrong choice. I am not really looking for an answer since it is clear what I need to do: keep pressing in. God only wants success in this area for me so I have no doubt I will attain it with His great help.