MANAGING THE PAIN

So I have some mysterious problem where I get pain.  I  get really bad headaches and a fun neck issue, where the pain starts somewhere and just keeps on going through my arm.  I also have been having sore legs for awhile; my theory is they think they are 80.  Then there were the doctors who couldn't figure it out and I have stopped going to except for just a family doctor.  I used to hate not knowing what was wrong and kept telling myself for sometime, "If I just knew, I could deal better."  Well, I really started thinking about it and the constant doctor's visits was worse than not knowing so that is where I am at with that.

I am better than when this all hit me.  A year ago I was in really bad shape.  Don't ask me what I am doing differently, because that is the fun of my condition it makes no sense.  I am learning how to manage it all.  I have found certain drugs to work without making me sick.  But, on the days where no pill works I am learning how to still live.  Whatever I have it hurts and it makes me want to just sit on the couch and not move.  But, when I move and get going it not only takes my mind off my pain to some degree, it usually helps.  So daily I struggle to remember this fact and to get off my butt and move.  Some days it feels like climbing Mount Everest as I get up and move through the pain.

More than anything though I am working to really live by what Paul writes in Philippians 4:12-13 "I have learned the secret of living in every situation...For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength."  In this case the situation is pain, but I know God can help me overcome and that my purpose in this world can still be achieved if I rely on Him and His strength.  That is the thing I want the most.